Must be this tall to ride!

today was up and down and everywhere inbetween, It really is a Mad World ...

so yeah here's a lil peek into part of my day...
there's a boy i've been crushing on the last few months, just a fun i like you but i think i like liking you more than i actually have real big kid feelings for you sorta crush... anyhow i think he almost called my shitout tonight, well that's how i'm looking at it i guess... here's the story:

last night he went out and had some fun, when i asked him how his night was he said he had a good time and couldn't remember most of it, and knowing him that meant he really did have a good time, so i just razzed him about his bad habits and that was the end of me asking about his night i'd assumed.
later on i walk in mid conversation about what really happened, i ignore most of it and continue working, butgive him shit later about how i just get "ohh i had a good time" where a boy gets "oh man...... fill in theblanks", he just smiles his devlish smile and goes "well you know, you're a lady!", i laughed and told him it hurt he could tell his boys but not me! (we talk all sortsa mad shit to eachother by the way) he blamed it on "the breasts", i laughed and asked which pair as i was wearing a shirt with some other girl's lovliness proudly displayed, again just a smile, i told him fine maybe i should just take off the shirt, a few dimples and smirks later we went back to work....
later i finally get the story out of him ,it started out like this though...

HIM: well i woulda told you, but i didn't want to offend you!
ME: OFFEND me? i'm offended you didn't tell me! shit like i get offended!
HIM: yeah well, sometimes if people like you they don't wanna hear about the shit you do with other people...
ME: oh so you were worried about hurting my feelings! i see i see! now tell the dammned story!

he blabs and smiles alot and blushes and i was genuinely happy for him, that's just how i am though!
but i dunno if that was supposed to be the moment when i shoulda said somehting like ~what are you talking about liking you?!?!~ or ~oh so you think i like you huh?~ or just something other than what i did say to get on to the story. i don't care if the boy knows, hell it'd make life easier for my oddly shy ass, but it's kinda fun being a bumbling girl ;)

so yeah other shit happened, some VERY grrish, some cool, some confusing and some of it was just me being a bratty girl and enjoying the role... but it's definitely been a very up and down day!

love to you all
E